we don't talk so much as we used to do nowadays, because when day time i'm either working or studying, and he's also busy working/doing something, evening i am either cooking or sleeping and night time i'm studying.

SIGH.

sad.

but its alright because today is already friday.

friday I can see him

happy nya.

really, i may seem like one, but i'm not.

i think i take quite a lot of time to actually start liking what's "in",

cause for now, the trendy "big shoulder" and the "lace" really do not attract me at all.

I am scared big shoulder will make me look fatter, and the lace stuffs remind me of form 2 time because that was the time where I really liked to wear this very pretty camisole with laces all over.

when the high waist just his a trend, I was thinking "what's with all the hype going about the high waist ?? I hate it I don't like it it's so unflattering -urgh!"

but now look. I think I have at least 5 high waist skirt/shorts, and even the normal ones I wear as high waist :D

I was thinking what the heck is peplum skirt, it looks so stupid, floral is so granny, yadayadayada but LOOK.
I love all my floral shirts/dress/skirts and peplum skirt is my favourite.

so when will I actually get my hands on those big shoulder dress and a lacy tops? I wonder =P

one thing that I wanted to ask since many many years ago.

How do you define people as "looking like Japanese"????

When people actually say this to me right, I always get the urge to talk back to them ... because..

seriously. how do you define as "looking like Japanese"?

I don't know man. seriously.

Because when I see Japanese on, let's say, no matter how dodgy/localized place I can tell that theyare Japanese.

And no matter how much people give a comment to a Malaysian girl saying that she looks very Japanese, I can tell you that they absolutely do not look like a Japanese. Not a single bit.

Okay maybe they can try to look like Japanese. I mean, the modern Japanese.
By having big curly hair, putting falsies and dressing like you just came out from CanCam.

But then I can still tell that they're not Japanese!!!

I think if you are born as Japanese, you get that culture.
I am brought up by Japanese parents by talking Japanese, eating Japanese and watching NHK religiously every single day ok. even though I live in Malaysia for more than a decade.

So how can anyone say I look like Malaysian? @@

Funny thing is when I told this to my high school friends they laughed out their ass off.
And they told me "HELL NO, Kei, you look TOTALLY J-A-P-A-N-E-S-E!"

=.=

P/S: I can even differentiate Korean/Malaysian/Chinese/Taiwanese and most of the time I am correct =D I think part of the reason why I can differentiate them is because I used to go to international school for more than 5 years and have been exposed to all sort of nationalities since young :D

P/P/S: These girls are all randomly taken from Google image. Do they look like Japanese?









Truth is, they are ALL Japanese except for the 1st girl. She's a Japanese model but she's from China. =)

my diet starts from tomorrow! (seriously)

though I've maintained my weight ever since I lost weight just few months ago, I feel like I've gainedweight again .. T_T
or maybe it's just me seeing an illusion. IDK. But whatever it is, I hereby swear that I will hit the gym tomorrow.

one of the blog that I read everyday, Hui Wen "Revel-in-me" has recently posted about her acne problem that she's facing right now.

I too, having the same problem right now!
my acne history starts like this.

I had bad acne problem I think when i was 15 or 16, where zits kept on popping up every morning and all I did was to just squeeeeeze them 'cause I couldn't control my itchy hands.
and I never took care of them and didn't know how to and I just suffered for like good 1 year or so I think.
I really hate my skin so much 'cause when it comes to pimples, they only appear on cheeks. Red
pimples on cheeks. You know how ugly they are right.
But after a year or so, it miraculously went off and all I had was scars. But they too, vanished as time goes. I think after another year or so I had a really good skin and trust me, a lot of people (not only friends, but random people like sales girl at boutique or the customer of the shop where I used to work) started asking me what skincare/foundation I use my skin looks so flawless!

I was soo happy with my skin although I did nothing about it. But, I think another few years has passed and the bloody pimples came back again.
This time I knew the reason, it's because I had an ovary cyst which delayed my period for like 3 months. My cyst has grown big and it affected my hormone balance and it just went all nuts.

Zits started popping up. one after another. every single day I had to face a new pimple and sighed at myself. I totally did not want to meet anyone, and what pained me the most was when people asked "omg, kei, what happened to your skin?!?!"

I did not do shit okay! it just happened just like that. I was really fucking depressed.
but after a while, I started taking birth control pill.
and this helped really a lot. I no longer suffered from pimples though it happened occasionally before the time of the month, all my scars had cleared up and I had an okay-skin.

And. NOW. after 2 years of taking pills, I stopped taking them sometimes in March this year.
Since then, now again I'm not having my period regularly. Sometimes it come in 1 month time sometimes it doesn't come for like 2 months.

and thus pimples on my cheek ...... T_____T

Please do not tell me I should sleep early, eat more vege, don't eat oily food or don't eat chocolate. Because I'm the healthiest person you'd find in this universe. I eat at home most of the time and I do not like oily food and I don't even eat anything sweet anymore. I eat vege more than meat because I don't like to eat meat wtf

Seriously there's nothing that I can do about this!!
I'm thinking maybe I shold go back to pill again afterall, but I am scared will my pimples come backafter I stop taking them again? T_T

for now I'm doing greentea mask everyday. DIY one. very easy to make. mix like 3g of greentea leaves and flour and put water and stir til it's thick enough to apply on face. You can add honey also. Honey works well on pimples. Apparently greentea helps to kill the germs and soothe your skin and evens out the tone. This mask is quite effective I've used it before when I had pimple scars. It worked last time but this time so far I'm not too sure because I've only started doing it today.

And also I've purchased Dermedex products just now, hope it helps to clear up my pimples..
I want to make birth control pills as my last resort cause, I want to get my period regular naturally. I do not want to depend on drugs if possible.

Sigh. Lastly, totally irrelevant, but here you go. Picture of me and sweeling taken 2 days ago.