okay, since mom started working I've been cooking quite often.

I MUST upload pictures of my cooking to compete with my friends, but unfortunately, my pictures are missing ... T______T

oh well I only have like 4 pictures though.
But I'm sure I cooked more than 50times already!! (maybe a bit exaggerating)



Dinner set A: some kind of fish, pumpkins, fried octopus and miso soup. yums! healthy!



Dinner set B: Menaiko Spaghetti, boiled broccoli and some kind of fried vegetable... what is that vege called?



Dinner set C: Ginger fried rice, and pan-fried salmon with mixed vegetable gravy



Dinner set D: Fried pork with ginger sauce, oven baked potato and tomato, and miso soup.



Dinner set D: Tomato soup and macaroni gratin!



Lunch: I know it looks crappy but this was good! With left over penne from that above gratin in tomato cream sauce yum <3



Dessert: My very own apple pie :)

But I have been cooking way more than this .... do you realise one thing? I don't cook meat dish at all... usually when I cook it becomes like 80% vegetable and 20% of something else wtf
it's 1am now, and I am drooling over my own food.... lol ..
well better have a sleep before I start munching on something.

night people! <3

I talked to a girl on facebook and she has told me that she once saw my blog but didn't really believe that I am japanese because my english is good.

sigh

:(

u know that toooo many malaysian girls are trying/wanting to be/look like japanese so the authentic ones like me is easily mis-seen as one of them when I am actually really from japan?

:(

it really doesn't matter to me where I come from because I really don't think being japanese is so special or at least my friends around me don't make me feel special because of where I come from.
but sometimes it happens when some random people from my course come up to me and say "hey I heard u're from japan! so do u go back to japan often? do u eat japanese food everyday? do u speak japanese?" in a FIRST CONVERSATION!

they don't even ask for my name, any general topic when you are first talking to that person but ask me about japan!!!!!!!!!!

=.=

I don't know maybe they think it is a good topic to talk about since I am from japan and all that but I can't help thinking,
"so, do they talk to me because I am from japan and they're fond of japan/japanese??"

ok I am going to other direction but the moral of the story is

1) I don't like people trying to be/look like japanese when they're not
2) I don't like people coming up to talk to me just because I am japanese

see me for who I am and I want to make friends with whoever I can get along.
I don't mind sharing things with people if they are interested but I don't like to talk to people only because they are only interested to know/be in contact with someone from there and not seeing me for who I am.

I've seen so many good looking people from all around the globe so nobody has to try to be anybody and just be themselves right? why do people want to try to portray their images as someone else when they are already good for being who they are?

I hope I do not let anyone down by writing this and I hope whoever reads this are able to understand what I am really trying to say. my writing skill is of no good and I am afraid people will take it in a different way T______T ( just like how sweeling misunderstood what I meant when I posted up something similar to this )

I'm sitting for marketing research paper tomorrow and I really hate sitting for this particular lecturer's paper! because I've developed a phobia over the past year I've failed her paper TWICE T______T
totally made me feel like I am an idiot or no brain or not capable of completing degree!!! (hello i am not exaggerating!)

I hope same case will not happen this time *touch wood touch wood*


P/S: I wna thank all my friends for being my friends.
I love you all sooooooooooooooooo much.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxo

one thing that I wanted to ask since many many years ago.

How do you define people as "looking like Japanese"????

When people actually say this to me right, I always get the urge to talk back to them ... because..

seriously. how do you define as "looking like Japanese"?

I don't know man. seriously.

Because when I see Japanese on, let's say, no matter how dodgy/localized place I can tell that theyare Japanese.

And no matter how much people give a comment to a Malaysian girl saying that she looks very Japanese, I can tell you that they absolutely do not look like a Japanese. Not a single bit.

Okay maybe they can try to look like Japanese. I mean, the modern Japanese.
By having big curly hair, putting falsies and dressing like you just came out from CanCam.

But then I can still tell that they're not Japanese!!!

I think if you are born as Japanese, you get that culture.
I am brought up by Japanese parents by talking Japanese, eating Japanese and watching NHK religiously every single day ok. even though I live in Malaysia for more than a decade.

So how can anyone say I look like Malaysian? @@

Funny thing is when I told this to my high school friends they laughed out their ass off.
And they told me "HELL NO, Kei, you look TOTALLY J-A-P-A-N-E-S-E!"

=.=

P/S: I can even differentiate Korean/Malaysian/Chinese/Taiwanese and most of the time I am correct =D I think part of the reason why I can differentiate them is because I used to go to international school for more than 5 years and have been exposed to all sort of nationalities since young :D

P/P/S: These girls are all randomly taken from Google image. Do they look like Japanese?









Truth is, they are ALL Japanese except for the 1st girl. She's a Japanese model but she's from China. =)

i'm having grapes and drinking grapes chu-hi sitting for my dinner down infront of computer sulking.

how pathetic is that!

I'm tired of explaining, tired of telling how I feel and tired of trying to make you understand my pointof view.

it's okay you will never understand me anyways. and you never did.

I am not here as a local, and I don't know any of the language here.

this doesn't count as an excuse because this is THE reason.

oh how I wish I was someone that you'd accept unconditionally.

gotta pack and leave soon.

I really have no time for this. I am just too busy with my work.

i've got many many things to say here but i was being too lazy to post anything fruitful.

1) i've got my new netbook! HP mini 2140 baby. :)
i didn't know what model is this so i did some research after my dad got for me.lol
apparently it's... um.... quite an expensive netbook wtf
i dont know how to judge computer and i totally can't tell if this is good thing or not but my father tells me it was expensive and googled pages tell me it is an expensive model so .... ah well. i will just treasure this. :) thank you my dad!!!

2) met up with friends, and friends and more friends (but the truth is they're always the same company)
Chen and Bick from Bangkok, Yoshie from Japan, and Jae Seung from Korea are back in KL for holiday! so we met up few times last week with bunch of friends from high school and did some usual things such as eat, drink and drink. i didn't take part in much of drinking though because .... it's really not my thing wtf
i don't like to drink till i get wasted because the feeling is just soooooooo suck and i no longer enjoy crazy parties anymore.
i feel like i became old, what happened to me who used to club every saturdays back when i was 16, 17??
i think i've clubbed seriously enough when i was form 4 & form 5 so i don't need much of it anymore. hahaha.

ah i've just gone out of the topic.
so yeah, the main point is, my friends were back !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






seeing them is definitely one of the most enjoyable things .. when will I ever get to see them like this again in future? now that everyone have gone back to their respective countries (except for one: Jae Seung is still around til end of the month) I will truly truly miss them, my good old friends ..

3) another good friend going away, Swee Ling


(Eunice in the picture posing with her very brand new phone! I jealoussss)

I don't think I need any explanation here because whenever I talk about my friends on my blog, it's always Swee Ling, Swee Ling and Swee Ling lol

she's leaving to the UK on this coming Saturday.
I hope and I wish you alll the best in UK .. come back with lots of souvenirs for me k I want clothes from topshop and burberry bag!

4) my diet life
I'm really slacking at this right now.
I managed to hit the gym consecutive 2 days on Monday and Tuesday, but I find myself really lack of motivation due to the fact that ... um now is my worst time of the month where I'm having a PMS. Pre Menstruation Syndrome sucks. It makes me really irritable, worsen my skin condition and makes my appetite bigger than usual. Today after coming back from class first thing I did was to dive into a muffin on the table wtf
I usually never do this okay! If I was ever tempted to eat such a sinful thing I'd go like "okay... this small buttery muffin would probably add up to 250kcal. To burn 250kcal I need to do 30minutes of treadmill. Um I guess I better not to eat this ...."
BUT!!! today!!! I just ate it without giving any thought about it and then I regretted sosososo bad.
even when I went to gym on Monday I could only do 20minutes of treadmill where usually I do more than 30 minutes, today even worse because I only did like 10minutes and after that I just went back home sigh.

I really need to buckle up.

5) Studies are shit. After I hand in all my assignments I really did not do anything after that. Yes I know I need to do literature review for my marketing research. I know I have to form a group for my 2nd assignment for mgt204 ... fuck I don't even have friends in class to begin with. How the hell am I gonna make a group T___T I hate myself for being such an anti-social at times like this.

6) I'm developing insomnia.
I cannot sleep at night. I get very hungry. My skin condition is already so bad. I feel like a total crap. I won't be able to concentrate at work. My metabolism rate is going down = I will end up being fatter omg

I need to sleep now.
baibai